i knew that nothing's gonna be the same here. instead of missing something back there, i value what i have more rather than what i lost. it's obvious that i am the one who determine what will happen later for my life. no more fu*kin leisure and no more negative thinking toward things. yeah being here teach me a lot. though i still kind of longing the precious memory, there will come something approaching me to smile and laugh as i never do that before.

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hakuna matata!

i used to sing that a lot with my jelek partner, kei haha. how could i forgot those easy yet meaningful words? she kept telling me that time to be optimist and few days ago one of the udikers, pak batman just recalled those words. i was the one who called my another udik partner, niq, told her that life is not as beautiful as what you think, but u may paint ure life as what u like. the soft muscle girl, monna once text me if u found ure way, keep going. if there's a giant wall blocking ure path, break it with ure own strength. if there's a really dead end, then u have to make ure another path.

then my dear parents. "expext something as high as u can coz it can be a rope for u to climb up, but never gone beyond what u can not reach. everything has a limit". thanks a lot.....

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there's always an explanation for everything but hardly in form of words. i was totally a loser back there, felt like i'm alone and everyone merely leaves me without reasons. i never wanted to lose, but there's always someone above me. nothing's gained if i keep comparing. best thing is to do what i can for time being.but again it was just stupid outcome from my mind, still stick on what i have firmly set to.

"nothing's absolute. it's a matter of mind set"

"it means no worries for the rest of your days. there's a will, there's a way.

"life's a challenge and i'm motivated to not lose to anyone"

techy always win from udiks haha

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one more time, again and again

LIFE IS TOO SHORT....