taking break dari pola hidup
fyuh!
gila ga kerasa gw ud sebulan lbih di sni, malah maw exam bentar lagi. stelah lama ga tulis blog akhirna kepikiran lagi. sbage pengisi waktu luang and taking break dr studies gw yg segunung ntu.terpikir deh waktu" yg di indonesia lagi. emang ga boleh dipikirin trus-trusan, karna sekedar memori belaka. 2 taon kindergarden gw dan 6 taon primary di amitayus. ga banyak yg bsa gw inget karna dulu gw masi kecil bner and ga ngerti bnyk hal.
ketika ud masuk secondary, otomatis gw dituntut banyak hal untuk dipikirin. semakin gw gede, smakin gw explore dunia gw sendiri. ternyata i was quite short minded till time changed me to who i am now.
5 taon di central ternyata ud merasuki bagian hidup gw. banyak bgt hal yg gw lakuin dan tinggal sebage memori. dulu mungkin gw ga maw bwat memori bnyk" karna nanti pasti jd penghambat untuk move on in anything. gw salah total!
hidup terlalu singkat. kalo gw ga enjoy skrg, kpan lagi?
my dad once said,"kita tuh dtg ke dunia cuma maen-maen, klo ud waktunya habis kita dipanggil plg lagi." hiks, sedih bner gw klo gtu. but i wont waste all my life into tears.
planning ke depan gw untuk stay di sni ternyata ga sebentar. 5 taon untuk nyelesein foundation and bachelor gw. lom lg march intake uni yg bikin gw pusing apa gw harus stay di sni ampe 6 taon? terusin ampe stage slanjutnya and nyari kerja sini bwat pengalaman kira" makan waktu 8 taon lbih! gila lama banget.
yg ad di otak gw tuh pertama kali masuk sini ternyata gw tuh sendirian. dan lagi" gw salah. stelah bergaul ama temen" gw yg di sni, ternyata mreka jg berpikiran saama. life's tough here. competisi nya membuat pressure dr luar dalem. one thing for sure, cepet" selsein and pulang. mreka and gw jg ga maw lama" di sni. yg bsa kita percaya tuh klo waktu cepat berlalu dan seiring itu berjalan, mungkin bsa merubah pikiran kita akan hal ini. sapa taw ntar gw jd ga maw plg? hahaha ^^
hanya aj, apa 5 taon yg dulu bsa diulang? entah napa gw tetep maw balik kayak dulu and merubah keputusan gw yg skrg. kyknya gw slah milih nie jadi mati langkah. sigh......
emotional feeling gw sempet took control of my mind hence gw ga mikir ke depannya. tp emg itu yg jadi ganjelan gw di sni. apa nanti 8 taon di sni bisa membuat kenangan sgtu banyk nya seperti dulu? is it worth it?
haha yg pasti ga, hidup ga slamanya constant. kayak fisika aj kira-kira. yg namanya constant speed pasti jg ad acceleration dan deceleration, tergantung kondisi aj, apa kita harus ngalah, maju, mundur ato diem doank.
anyway gw ud ketmu tman" yg cukup fun dan gila di sni haha. they are good enough for me at the moment. hanya karna masi baru jd lom lepas kli ya sifat asli gw hehe
itu yg di pikiran gw sampe saat ini. life tuh challenge and klo ini emg battle field nya gw, maw ga maw emang dijalanin. stiap sesuatu terjadi ad sebab dan akibatnya. dan gilanya gw ampe harus percaya tuh bakal kasi better solution bwat gw! damn! damn! damn!!!
5 comments:
well..
what i've experienced so far about life is..
Life is tough when its new and unadjusted..
but..after u've gone thru the adjusting of ur new life, u wont feel the big difference at all..
hmm...ur experience is exactly the same with mine couple of years ago..
i used to live in life, everything perfectly managed by my parents, and go to the school with a few of students in the class and have a caring teacher...
but, when i came here at first..
i felt i was living a go*damn life in here...
i should manage my own life, try to adjust my life with the new school environment[crowded class, carefree teacher, freaky classmates], and other fu*king mess...
i thought to wander back to my previous life as well..but, the harder i thought for it, the bigger regrets nestled inside my mind of coming here...
but, finally i could adjust my life with the new stuffs and im getting the pleasure from it now..not ending up in a fu*king regretful life, but no regrets at all..and as u know, 2 yrs without coming back..hehehe...
well, i thought we are practicing the same principle..
Relativity, well..
if u think that ur life is worse now than ur life before, stop it.!
that proves ur not a true relativity-based person..
be optimist, ur life is becoming worse? nyeeeh...of course it isnt..its all only the mindset.!
worse is a relative word, remember..!
isnt optimist person happy when they see horse shit in the garden for they think they have a new horse and they can gain some fun with it? and isnt pessimist person sad when they see horse shit for they think they have to do the cleaning instead of thinking having a horse..??
and one more closing words from me [sorry to put some bulky comments, my hands r idling..cant stop typing..hohoho ]
try to think of this as an additional thoughts for u when ur getting ur thoughts of wandering back to the previous life..
Hmm..
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a perfect ending.”
well, if u think u start with no good beginning there, try to end it nicely then..;)
life's too short, dont let ur self being stuck in a hell-like life...Instead try to turn it into pleasurable one u can enjoy in living ur go*damn life..^_^
-mike was here-
hahaha u are right pak batman
no worries!
hakuna matata remember?
i didnt think that my new life is worse here, still i enjoy it being here, without regret. i knew it from the beginning that it wouldnt be the same. no more fu*kin leisure hahaha.
that thing i wrote, just as a reminder to not give in like that and get rid those damn stupid thinking hoho.
i am the one to determine my life. so i know i'll be just fine with being optimist. open minded of course, techy do that :p
it was a simply unexpected emotion that just came out suddenly hahaha
i value more what i have rather than what i lost ^^
in fact, i'm getting the idea of what u meant, "a pleasure"
seems that i'll end up like u too.... :P
tx a lot anyway
maybe i was a bit... well,
quite a loser that time haha
need more to be directed into what is the real life :D
anyway, i'm still get hang of it u know
"a relativity of life"
that's why i didnt do anything silly like crying everynight and regret everything i've done till this far :)
this blog is truly lesson for me, i realise....
Woooow!
You guys are really get into it. But... tell you what!
Don't think about it toooooo much coz your time is tooooo precious to be wasted such way.
Try to smile guyz!
Hope to see you soon Cung!
haha tx a lot kei
u know what
i miss
HAKUNA MATATA!!!!
haha
looking forward to see you soon
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